For the past several months I have been struggling as a writer.
There, I’ve said it.
I always TRY to stay positive and play through the pain (so to speak), but I’ve finally had to admit to myself that I’ve been less effective lately than I would like. There is a very good reason for this.
In March, the company I worked for was purchased. We had been hearing rumours about the purchase for months and it was something that, on paper at least, looked like a good thing for all of us. The reality was slightly less than many of us hoped. I went from being a full-time permanent employee to a full-time term employee with an end date of June 30th.
Since being employed and earning a living are important, this change of state weighed heavily on my mind. In fact, it weighed so heavily that everything else kind of got pushed out, including my writing projects.
I have come to terms with my new reality, but it stills causes me a great deal of anxiety. That means some days I can write and other days I cannot. The good news in this is, I now have room in my head for the writer part of my psyche. Unfortunately, the writer-piece can also be taken up by guilt for not having done more writing. This guilt, while silly, sometimes keeps me from writing further (too busy feeling sorry for myself, I suppose).
It’s a pretty vicious circle if you ask me.
So, I’m feeling guilty that I haven’t finished writing the final chapter of Boyscouts of the Apocalypse. I can confirm that it is almost done however and I managed to come even closer on the weekend. The schedule is pretty shot, but I promise it will be done and available soon. I’m also disappointed that I have not finished Mik Murdoch and the Power Within yet either. Don’t worry, it is half finished and will be done by the end of the summer one way or the other.
Until those two projects are done, I won’t be picking anything new up, especially since I am busy trying to promote A Method to the Madness: A Guide to the Superevil which is now available for purchase (thanks to Amazon jumping the gun).
I guess my point to this little post is, sorry some of the updates to projects have been delayed. I am working on them all and they will be complete…eventually.
That’s my story and I’m sticking to it.
You know already that I feel your pain. My writing has been damaged by the loss of my job, though thankfully I’m back already. Long story. I don’t know what to say except that you have permission to slow down. Keep your and your family’s happiness first, and whatever writing you can do on top is cream. You have already produced something great in Mik Murdoch:Boy Superhero, so I trust you can do it again.
Thanks Tim. I’m so glad to hear you are back at it already. I know I will get through this and, I think, I’ve made my peace with the issue. Now back to doing something I love. 🙂