Testing My Resolve

Life has a way of testing a person, sometimes continually. As I am typing this, I realize that the difficulties I have faced in my life are trivial to what others have faced and it feels a little bit like whining to me.

Still, we all get used to a certain lifestyle. When we are removed from that lifestyle for something less, it is jarring. It is a test to see how we will react. Will we adapt to the new life, will we struggle and fight our way back to where we were (or beyond) or will we roll over and die.

I would like to think that I will fight my way back up to former glories and then continue on to new ones. Still, even adapting can be daunting.

I have found myself being tested the past while. Many of the tests have been around my own mental and emotion toughness. There have been many days where I’ve struggled to meet the challenges. But I remind myself that I have writing commitments to finish, not to mention a family to support and a life to live.

And, so I have been doing all of those things.

I will confess, the writing has been more difficult. I haven’t felt the same level of excitement that I had been. Still, the words are flowing and that adds some level of comfort. It also gets me ever closer to finishing that first draft of Mik Murdoch and the Power Within. As I type the title, I realize how apt it is. I too am trying to find that inner power that will allow me to rise to former heights and beyond.

Is that what truly makes me a writer? I don’t honestly know the answer to that. All I do know is that I must write and in the process of doing so, I am stronger.

I hope I can pass this test.



  1. Mike –
    It is not whining. Ok I say that mostly because if yours is whining then mine has to be too, and so I am saying that it is not whining.

    Some times we need to get these things out there. Some of it is that it makes us feel better that other people are feeling the same thing.

    And You know what? We feel your pain. We are here for you, and we will do what we can to support.

  2. Thanks Jeff. That is actually one of the things that is making this episode more bearable. There are a lot of people in my corner and I am actually aware of that for a change. Good things will happen. I just have to keep working at it.

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